I am what I am

Vampire Weekend - Ya Hey

I am probably going to see these peeps and I love this song so much, it has this perfect melancholic fragrance, it has this little twist that makes it special. I saw them live when I was 14, they were the first band I ever saw in concert, I'll never forget it. 

I just realised we're already half way through August. It's already been a month since I saw Katie and when I look back there's not much there, it feels like a blank page but so many events took place. It's so strange. I have the weirdest and worst memory ever, I just can't remember most of it, probably because I don't care too much. I used to want to document my past properly, remember all the little things, but I gave up on that, now I'm stuck with this sick obsession with moving forward. Further and further, pushing boundaries, exploring limits and erasing them, I long to find things that no one discovered before and keep some of them as secrets. And even though I have this disconnection with my past, I find that the things that truly touched me remain somewhere inside you, like an illness sleeping under your skin and sometimes they come out. Like today, when I remembered you say "I don't like Vampire Weekend," and I smiled and I remembered how much I miss you and how it felt like every bone in my body was broken when you left me and how I still miss you and I still sigh when I think of you. Skarbie, kocham cie. Dobranoc ♥